L.aS.t.Ni.Gh.T

Chandler and I met up for a double date in Kaneohe with Chandler's boss and his wife. We went to the windward mall and walked around to waste time for an hour before our movie started. We stopped at a sunglass Kiosk to try on a few pair of glasses. I hate carrying a purse so I don't use one much anymore. I had my phone in my back pocket at one time. Then my HTC EVO Android got stolen. Okay- it seems so stupid and sometimes I don't understand why I feel the things I do sometimes. When I ask myself why am I sick to my stomach over this? I was even hot flashing to be exact. Why do I care so much about my phone being gone? Is it that its brand new to me? Is it that I paid 350.00+ for it? Is it that I feel lost, empty handed? I feel safe with it? I have to be able to receive calls and text messages? Is it that ALLLL my info is out there now for some stranger to read...Facebook, yahoo account, all my text conversations (sweet nothings back and forth between my hubs and I) haha, or my PICTURES!? So of course no one turned it in. That's kinda the nature of the beast out here in Hawaii. Never have expectations of people returning things here. Honest people sometimes are few are far between. Earlier this month Chandler's boss' phone got stolen AT church!!!! LDS yes... Sad story! Weird I know! I was walking in the mall searching, looking.. and Cassie says to me "can you imagine finding something that's not yours and keeping it? Taking something that isn't your own and keeping it?" I have never thought of keeping anything that wasn't mine. I get caught up on thinking everybody thinks that too. It is not in my nature to ever do that. Its not ethical. its not right. Its not okay. Some people out there are selfish and don't care and think just the opposite. They have no idea how bad it sucks for me. So I have been thinking about this the last 24 hrs. I am sick to my stomach because not only is my phone gone.. Its JUST a phone right? It is JUST a phone but also a portion of my life too- really haha. A few years ago no big deal but now smart phones are our everything. literally. A lot of my privacy is temporally gone and a portion of my life the last three months. My cell was loaded with photos and that's the only thing I care about. I can close my cell account momentarily, I can get a new cell, I can retrieve my contacts online, I can eventually receive calls and texts again soon- whoop big deal, I can feel safe again carrying a phone, but my PICTURES! ;( ;( Egh it simply sucks! I went home to Utah for 2 weeks a week ago and I had soooo many pictures on there. 400 plus photos. goner. I met my nephew for the first time, went to the cabin, saw lots of friends, went to Vegas with my mom, saw family, did lots of fun things.

Oh well- nothing I can do about it now. Move on.com. Anyway my next post I will have a few photos I uploaded from my trip. Thanks to my insurance and being spoiled I have a new Evo in the mail its here on Tues. So Ill start fresh. Ill definitely be doing some things different privacy wise this time. Im trying to justify that the movie Larry Crowne was worth losing a phone over ;) Mmmm Not so much! Kinda a Dull one!